OMG :D

So I just finished my song well for the most part. I'm so excited to finally finish the lyrics. I don't know what inspired me to finish it tonight, but I just grabbed my composition book and started jotting down ideas and scratching things out. I can't believe I finished this song. I'm so happy. Oh a few things changed of course, but its still a love song cause I'm a sucka for love like DK haha. I'm still unsure about the chorus so I'm having a couple friends help me out. I can't wait to share the finished piece with my close friends and hear their opinions. 

World this is "Picture Perfect Paradise"

There's something about your face

Something in those eyes

Makes me smile inside

And shapes my whole world right

I don't understand

The reasons for feeling this

All I know is that 

I just hope you'll stay

Ever since the day

You waltzed into my life

All I do is think about you

I just want to be with you tonight

I don't want to keep pretending

I hope this feelings never ending

While you hold my hand

Its as if everything just fades away

And all that's left is

You and I tonight

My picture perfect paradise

I'm so happy this song is out of me :D I'm so sure that it'll keep changing, but its finally out of my mind and now I can share it. I'm so excited haha

My Song

So I'm working on a song right now and I'm planning to title it "Please Never Go Far Away" and its so aggravating because my writing process is going slow. I feel as if I don't really have much inspiration to pull from. This would probably be easier if I were in love :P so I'm getting inspiration from of course Robert Pattinson's songs :) that I love very much and songs from Matt White Band. I really wonder who this song is meant for. There are two guys that come to mind but I'm pretty sure the feelings I had for them weren't as intense or passionate to say that I felt "love" for these guys is over the top most likely probably lust or I liked him a lot I don't know but what I felt for them isn't enough to write this song. 

This is what I have so far

There's something about your face

Something in those eyes

That makes me smile inside :)

Makes my whole word right

I really don't know why

Why I feel this way

All i know is that

I just hope you'll stay

Ever since the day I met you

All I do is think about you

I just want want to be with you tonight

As of now I don't know where to go from there. I really wish I could finish this song. Hopefully it'll be finished eventually... maybe when I meet the guy that I don't want to ever go away. I suppose I am a hopeless romantic :} haha 

I've been thinking about music a lot lately and I've been day dreaming about becoming famous and such. I think it would be really cool, but my music is personal to me. Being famous does have its perks, but is it worth it? There are so many people that are infatuated with the daily lives of celebrities. I love my privacy so I would most likely have a Brittany Spears moment and attack the paparazzi with my umbrella too haha :P since I'm on the topic of Brittany Spears I think that she will get back on top again and I'm glad she won @ the VMAs :) 

My First Blog haha :P

So my best friend Tasha <3 introduced me to this webblog stuff and I think this is a really good way for expressing myself and such. I just started college @ UNLV well I'm about to finish my second week :) College so far has been really boring no lie, hopefully things will get more challenging haha i can't believe I wish it would but hey I'm paying good money so I would like to be challenged, I'll probably going to end up eating my words in a few months. I do love having no school on Fridays and sleeping in, but I want more out of this. I want this amazing college experience that everyone talks about. I can only hope that I experience that.


Enough about college, its so boring so far :P


I am definitely not the type to have crushes on celebrities, though I do admire them because of their talents. I have one exception though, Robert Pattinson :D Most people know him as Cedric Diggory in the Harry Potter series and now he is more known for playing Edward Cullen in Twilight. Its funny because most of his fans like him because they perceive him as the character he plays, but at the same time its rather sad because people don't see him as him. I don't know if that makes any sense but it is 1:35 AM so forgive me. Obviously I don't know the guy, wish I did, he seems like a pretty fun person to be around and has a good sense or humor and not to mention he's pretty easy on the eyes haha and a talented actor & musician. I'll probably get over this phase, but I owe a great deal to this guy because his music "inspired" me to continue composing music and singing. I know it's pretty cheesy but inspiration comes in many different forms. Pattinson's music is just so passionate and personal it just inspired me to do the same. Its been a while since I've done my own music. I'm slowly getting back into things. I'm writing a song write now. I'm pretty sure it's a love song. I know I probably won't do music professionaly but I love it and I wish I could inspire people to pursue what they love. It's pretty amazing how things can change in an instant.



Okay new topic :P hmm


I've been feeling pretty strange lately. For the past couple of months I've been stuck on love. I've never experienced it except for the love I have for my family and friends. I dont' know how to explain it. I live a good life and I'm surrounded by so many people that love and care for me too, but somehow I still feel empty? Weird. At first I thought I was just PMSing haha but I'm not. I may not show it but when I see couples, movies, shows, etc. and they're just so happy to be with that special someone. I just want to experience that. I know I don't need someone to make me happy or make me feel like my life is worth living, but it would be nice to have a special someone. I'm pretty sure this phase will pass until the next romace movie I watch hahaha. The reason that this is strange for me is because I'm not the romance type. I'm the girl that loves watching action movies and comedies and at times horror but romance would be at the bottom of the list. Don't get me wrong I don't hate the concept of love I "love" love <--so dumb haha-- I am an independent person so I don't really count on others too much especially in relationships. I don't know its just strange when I randomly cry about "love" so dumb I always ask myself whats my deal thinking that i'm gonna get an answer ha not. I've confided in close friends mainly natasha :) about it she said she'll diagnose me when they get that far in her psychology class haha what a loser <3 Anyways I just know that one day when the time comes I will have the capacity to love someone so much so that I can't live without him, but that'll be pretty hard because I am so very independent :D so I must really love that person when that happens


So its like 2:03 AM I'm done shiiii I got class tomorrow